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1-Kej trecena daily digest: begins 21 April 2018

Preface: Clearing the air

Kej stands for perpetual travels out in the wild, unknown parts and less-trodden paths of the land. The spirit of the four-legged animals is embodied on this plane to pace the earth within neighboring woods and well beyond them. When a stag (another word for Kej) is not going anywhere he is probably too busy protecting his community and offspring diligently.

However, being a stag, you can never know when he’ll disappear, maybe not ever to return. Then you realize that his young bucks have grown up already, and the pack guard is being releaved by new recruits. It was good timing after all. The aging stag is now off on a new pilgrimage, reliving his days of youth and hormones.

In Hinduism, this is known as being a Varna Prasta – a forest dweller.

His spirit dwells still around his old breeding and child-rearing grounds. Sons and daughters tune into the frequency left behind by their ancestors, and learn the way of their kind by resonance.

1-Kej: Path of blessings

1-Kej: The lone pilgrim

Born on this day: Bob Schieffer, Matthew Modine, Franz Beckenbauer, Antonis Samaras (Greek president), Moses Montefiore, Ernst Alexanderson

Today I plant a seed of healing

Today I plant a seed of healing and cleansing

The sun came up clear and warm this morning. The skies were clean and pristine, no clouds and no aerosol debris. Every morning can seem just like the one before it, but this one didn’t. I was different.

Comfort runs deep enough to elude me. It begins with my body vehicle – where I sit and how long I sit there; the paths I take from and to. It continues with the people I talk to and meet. Then comfort gets too comfy dwelling on ideas that are “same, same, but different”. It goes on and on and it’s all-pervasive.

It’s time to try something that really scares me.

Kej is essentially this overall impression. He is the lone pilgrim.

“There’s more to life than this.”

2-Q’anil: Doubled rabbit

Born on this day: Elvis Presely, Cal Ripken Jr., Kenny Wheeler, Gary Webb

"The image is one thing and the human being is's very hard to live up to an image." - Elvis Presley (2-Lamat)

“The image is one thing and the human being is another…it’s very hard to live up to an image.” – Elvis Presley (2-Q’anil)

The restless 1-Kej, ever-looking for some new adventure, constantly evolving spiritually – finds his/her match on 2-Q’anil. In other words: be careful of what you wish for!

Q’anil is an ancient word for multitasking. Lamat-types can have many different interest going around on their mind at any given time. For example, I was born 8-Q’anil and I can safely say it’s been that way ever since I can remember my conscious self. All Q’anil-types also have Iq on their right-hand cross, so the craving to learn more about many different things (shining star in all directions) can be explained this way, too.

Today I meet Lamat on a 2-day. In numbers, 2 is the one and only natural number that multiplies its predecessor (1). When you go from 2 to 3 it’s already a lesser “leap”.

Two is also related to a question, or “duality” in the parlance of our times. So the lone pilgrim 1-Kej who was edging to try something new and terrifying yesterday wakes up to a showstopper question – “why bother? What’s out there that isn’t right here/now?” So many destinations – and Q’anil is bountiful.

However, Q’anil’s comfort zone is low self-esteem, a.k.a. the argumentative “black hole mode” Q’anil.

You heard me, rabbits.

3-Toj: Active liquid

Born on this day: Mick Jagger, George Washington (1st US president), Bertrand Russell, Kyra Sedgwick, Rob Lowe, Shirley MacLaine, 2011 Tōhoku earthquake and tsunami

"Make the most of the Indian hemp seed, and sow it everywhere!" - George Washington (3-Muluc)

“Make the most of the Indian hemp seed, and sow it everywhere!” – George Washington (3-Toj)

The third day’s sunrise was a deja-vu revision of that first, transparent one I witnessed the day before yesterday. It couldn’t be identical, though, because sunrises never are. I was different again.

I remembered the first seed of rebellion vs. Comfort I sowed then. Last night’s dilemma (2-Q’anil) has to be transcended by action. My spiritual horizons never used to came up to me while I sat and watched them in awe, and this time it’s going to be just the same. I need to meet the horizon at least half way.

So I made some calls and got organized. My 15 minutes of fame in the shower made me think in 5th gear. Water on my skin does that to me every single time. I pick up a thread, pull it until I become self-conscious about it, then pick up a better thread. When I finished I came up with my daily wisecrack:

The sunrise is just a symbol. It means Wake Up!

Waking up can mean so many things, but many of them can be summed up by some kind of “responsibility”. Is it the grownup type? Job, bills, kids? Na, not this time. On the lone pilgrim’s journey this means loving my own destination to the point of not letting go of it. This approach can no longer be called “responsibility”, but it’s so much better than it.  Toj has to be passionate about her paths of devotion, otherwise she’ll turn to wherever her passion guides her.

Dedication. I can’t get around without it; I can’t get around it without falling right back on comfort and my own personal conformity. When fully awake, Toj has to be on the move, and she takes me along with her. If I’m wise I’ll let her take the lead.

The number 3 is a dynamic power source that knows no boundaries. Whatever I decide to dedicate myself to becomes total and engaging. I interact closely with that goal I’m focused on, I nurture it and it nurtures me back. Indeed, dedication can easily be both a means and an end at the same time.

Then I just went out the door.

Procrastination is a nice word for a self-inflicted guilt trip. Dwelling on it just doesn’t help anyone.

4-Tzi: Complete devotion

Born on this day: Branford Marsalis, Kevin Bacon, David Broza, Tzipi Livni

Bravery sets the boundaries of spiritual healing

Bravery sets the boundaries of spiritual healing

Devotion offered freely is a powerful engine. But even engines have limits, and so must be treated every once in a while with some tender loving care. I know people who do the devotion thing all day long. Other people love them, they get tons done, but mental fatigue builds up in deep and secret places. Then one late afternoon they realize they’ve got nothing more to give.

Tzi is the guardian, defending his clan from ignorance and malicious trespass till his tomb, and then again beyond it. This is the flavor which makes him/her a favorite and down-to-earth kind of pack leader. Tonight I let Tzi take care of me, and keep his vigil in case I overdo devotion and forget about having fun doing it.

When coupled with the stabling effect of the number 4 Tzi becomes a very astute kind of canine. One who guards boundaries wisely and consistently.

5-Ba’atz: Power of Art

Born on this day: Flea, Richard Wright (Pink Floyd), Cat Stevens, Tim Roth, Marisa Tomei, Lasse Hallström, Vin Scully

"The Koreans have influenced us a lot, through their loving attitude, evil dictatorship, and funky bass playing." - Flea (5-Chuen)

“The Koreans have influenced us a lot, through their loving attitude, evil dictatorship, and funky bass playing.” – Flea (5-Ba’atz)

The road leading to the temple took several days off my terrestrial tenure span, and gave me many profound memories in return. When I tell stories about my trip people are entertained, especially the ones who don’t believe half of them. Those are usually the ones that don’t share my pet peeve of doing truly scary things.

Before reality became just another entertaining story it was real and present. Walking the road up to the mountain temple wasn’t easy, but the hardships were not as significant as the magnificent way in which they were negotiated. My old self arrived at unfamiliar surroundings, as new strands were woven into my dusty, familiar tapestry. Living the road was like putting brush and paint to a canvas, or like playing live in front of the living.

It was ALIVE, and it still is.

Art empowers me by inspiration. I’m a curious lone pilgrim, in constant awe of new things I learn every day and in every way.

6-E’: Traditional path

Born on this day: Jerry Lee Lewis, Liberace, Joe Perry (Aerosmith), Juliette Lewis, Ray Liotta, Mel Brooks, Christopher Marlowe (baptised today), Mariano Rivera

"Hope for the best. Expect the worst. Life is a play. We're unrehearsed." - Mel Brooks (6-Eb)

“Hope for the best. Expect the worst. Life is a play. We’re unrehearsed.” – Mel Brooks (6-E’)

Like the veins of the great mother, roads course through the old country, tracing the same routes for many years. The steps you took yesterday for the first time have been already taken by many feet before yours. Maybe one of your forebearers walked here before, and now you walk with him.

As any stranger in a strange land you rely on community and companionship to satisfy your mundane needs. Total strangers offer hospitality and advice, provide maps and directions. They let you into their world and homes, treating you as a fellow soul feeding off the mother.

After eating your fill and resting, other needs begin to replenish and balance off. Things like having someone really listen to me, and reciprocating. Cravings like sitting still and enjoying company. Loosing track of time by simply sharing life with fellow humans. You realize the mundane and the elevated are one and the same.

Someone once said something about the meek. The E’ energy is very much about respect, which is the only type of foundation any community can have. Respect guides you when you ask a stranger for help. Respect guides the stranger who bravely reaches out back to you.

However, respect has nothing to do with authority.

7-Aj: Purpose and destiny

Born on this day: Hafez al-Assad, Hermann Göring, Phil Jackson, Michael Wood, US civil war ends

"The only one who really knows about the Reichstag is I, because I set it on fire!" - Hermann Göring (7-Ben)

“The only one who really knows about the Reichstag is I, because I set it on fire!” – Hermann Göring (7-Aj)

One afternoon I took a hike with my host up one of the hills. I couldn’t tell how he picks his way, cutting through overgrown thickets and revealing hidden paths. But I followed him anyway, maybe because I had no other choice, or perhaps because his staff was made of local wood, and it gave its bearer at least a measure of soft authority.

The view I got just wouldn’t allow me to dwell on any kind of thought.

When we stopped he pointed to the horizon and told me the name of a close community. I knew it was time to go.

Seven has that sense of staying where I am, right up until that point when I gather what’s mine, get up and start walking again. When I arrived it felt right to stay here forever. Now it’s clear my stay has elapsed, and no more rest is needed.

Onwards to whatever experience my destiny has in store over the hill. It was destiny that made me stay and share life with the local community. Now the same destiny shifts polarity and becomes dynamic again. Destiny begins here and now, even if it seems like I’m going nowhere for a while.

Wanderlust, as a perpetual way of life and destiny, is the fuel of the pilgrim, whether he’s by his own fireplace or blazing a fresh, unknown path.

8-Balam: Infinite magic

Born on this day: Keren Ann, Perry Farrell, Margaret Thatcher, Buzz Aldrin, Orlando Bloom

"Oh, but you know, you do not achieve anything without trouble, ever." - Margaret Thatcher (8-Ix)

“Oh, but you know, you do not achieve anything without trouble, ever.” – Margaret Thatcher (8-Balam)

Wild, untamed nature dwells in a realm beyond what the word “beautiful” can ever express. It is magical in the most mundane and spectacular sense of magic; the deep magic that makes the flowers bloom is too much for even the god of spring to fathom.

In the silent, bubbling wells hidden in caverns lies the essence of the Mayan archetype known as the jaguar. The purity of real Mountain Dew, its vitality and freshness – all embody the hallmark of Yucatan jungle evolution. A feline so magical it is a demigod in the bush.

The jaguar’s magic is present in any manifestation of nature. Besides the springs, the jungle itself is guarded by the energy of Balam, along with sacred shrines, overlooking the entire green and brown vista.

9-Tzikin: Macro-vision

Born on this day: Chick Corea, Teri Hatcher, Stephen Baldwin

The eagle's perspective bestows patience.

The eagle’s perspective bestows patience.

Then I saw it.

A white and yellow temple on the side of a high cliff. A sacred place for generations of truth seekers and pilgrims. It looked exactly like the old library in Alexandria, only completely different. An unknown treasure was waiting silently for an enthusiastic seeker to show up.

All that I saw from the other side of the ravine. Fantastic visions aside, I still had to find my way there. I still had to communicate with whoever was there and gain access and maybe a bed and some food.

I am still

gaining altitude, circling around peaks and finding thermals.

A bridge spans the chasm above me.

10-Ajmaj: Forgiveness now

Born on this day: Marshall McLuhan, Zoe Saldana, George Gershwin, Daniel Barenboim, Fred Durst, Arthur C. Clarke, Thomas Young, Robbie Gee, Catherine Duchess of Cambridge (Kate Middleton)

"It is experience, rather than understanding, that influences behaviour." - Marshall McLuhan (10-Cib), Understanding Media (1964)

“It is experience, rather than understanding, that influences behaviour.” – Marshall McLuhan (10-Ajmaj), Understanding Media (1964)

Read about 10-Ajmaj in a dedicated post.

The stones that were assembled to make up the temple had a cold knowledge deep inside them. Even in the summer sun I could place my hand on a random pillar and it would be cool.

11-Noj: Creative frequency

Born on this day: Christopher Hitchens, Roseanne Barr, Bob Odenkirk, Jay-Z, Timothy Leary, Michael Cera, Greg Lake, Dorothy Rothshild

"Think for yourself and question authority." - Timothy Leary (11-Caban)

“Think for yourself and question authority.” – Timothy Leary (11-Noj)

On the way back home from my pilgrimage my thoughts took on a pristine quality. Something was cleaning up inside, and the journey with all the experiences I had are what made this clensing happen. I felt very strong and healthy, as if I just got out of a morning shower.

My life had one kind of routine going before I left for this trip. This kind was now doomed to be discarded. I realized I cannot go back to being the person I was. My family and neighbors that are now waiting for me to return are waiting for someone who I used to be.

That said, when they see me they’ll still be able to recognize me immediately. We’ll all be very happy for a while, as my long-awaited return is celebrated. Then I’ll slowly begin picking up the threads and ties of my regular life.

Adaptation is on my mind as I pick my way down the landscape increasingly familiar to me. The new and the old adapt to each other, making good ties stronger and bad ties fall apart.

12-Tijax: True completion

Born on this day: Georges Moustaki, Annie Lennox, Louis Armstrong, Lou Reed, Shania Twain, Daddy G (Massive Attack), Eddy Ifft, Rudyard Kipling, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Michael Flatley, Martin Scorsese, Jennifer Jason Leigh, Jacques Chirac, Lincoln’s assassination

"Oh, East is East, and West is West, and never the twain shall meet, till Earth and Sky stand presently at God's great Judgment Seat" - Rudyard Kipling (12-Edznab) The Ballad of East and West (1889)

“Oh, East is East, and West is West, and never the twain shall meet, till Earth and Sky stand presently at God’s great Judgment Seat” – Rudyard Kipling (12-Tijax) The Ballad of East and West (1889)

My grandson came to visit me the other day. He came to say goodbye before leaving on a long and far away journey. As he knew growing up, out of all the elders in the family I was the one who traveled the most.

So we sat down together in the living room with our drinks and I told him the stories that no one remembers anymore, about what happened on the way to the temple, how amazing it was to be there, how stupid I was going around backward countries with next to no luggage or equipment.

How lucky he was today for being on the doorstep with one foot in adventure.

That was the last time he saw me.

13-Kawok: Divine cleansing

Born on this day: Vandana Shiva, David Hyde Pierce, Janet Jackson, Axl Rose, Edgar Allan Poe, River Phoenix, Kevin Pollak, Kim Thayil (Soundgarden)

“They who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night.” – Edgar Allan Poe (13-CAUAC), Eleonora (1841)

High rain clouds pass overhead indifferently.

12-E’: Warrior of peace (6 April 2018)

Born 12-E’: LeVar Burton (Star Trek TNG), Maurice Ravel, Django Reinhardt, Yitzhak Rabin (5th Israeli PM), Jeff Bridges (a.k.a. The Dude), Chaim Topol (a.k.a. Fiddler on the Roof), David Zucker, Margot Robbie


“We are destined to live together, on the same soil in the same land.” – Yitzhak Rabin (12-E’)

Israel’s 5th prime minister, Yitzhak Rabin was born 12-E’ according to the Mayan master Tzolkin calendar (to-day). He’s remembered by many, Israelis and others, as being the last emphatic voice for peace, speaking out in the small corner of the world I call home, that’s been a sad and tragic battleground for way too long.

His voice and way were cut short by multiple gunshots to his back on the night of November 4th, 1995 (13-Ak’abal). The fanatic right-wing zealot who shuffled old Yitzik off (t)his mortal coil was Yigal Amir (12-Kej, akin to Rabin’s 12-E’, 65 days/quarter cycle apart). Like 9/11 for Americans, you can ask any Israeli who’s old enough, and s/he’ll tell you exactly where they were, what they were doing, and the way in which they first heard about Rabin’s murder. The .38 caliber rounds reverberated through the nation’s soul, and for many – it still does.

It’s astonishing how much change can be packed into one day. Into a moment.

“Military cemeteries in every corner of the world are silent testimony to the failure of national leaders to sanctify human life.” – Rabin receiving the Nobel Peace Prize, 1994. In this picture with King Hussein of Jordan (13-Tijax)

From Wikipedia:

“Despite attempts to defend his actions on religious grounds, Amir was found guilty, and sentenced to life imprisonment plus six additional years in prison for injuring the bodyguard.”

“Upon hearing that Yitzhak Rabin was dead, Amir told the police that he was “satisfied” and was acting on the “orders of God.’ [CNN] At his trial, Amir said he did not care if the outcome was death or paralysis as long as Rabin was “out of the way”. He expressed no regret for his actions.[Ha’aretz]”


I was coming out of a mall movie theater, that late Saturday evening, when me and my girlfriend heard a radio news cast over the mall PA system. It was odd and surreal all at once, since that mall usually played the ubiquitous mall music and store adverts that play inside the heads of all earthly mall-goers. Listening intently, we realized something was very wrong.

The voice of a man, recorded outside a Tel-Aviv hospital, kept repeating “Rabin’s dead” amidst a choir of crying and wailing.

We drove back to her parents’ home listening to radio reporters trying to pin down facts and eyewitness accounts, and we hardly exchanged a word. When we went to bed we embraced and kept listening to the radio in her room, in total shock, disbelief and grief, unable to get any kind of real sleep. We hardly felt refreshed hours later, when we woke up shortly after sunrise, to the melancholy notes of a slow song on the radio we left on.

It was possibly one my first wake-up calls, if you will. The first hairline fracture of doubt to appear on my once-pristine and wholesome trust in cohesion of leadership, national solidarity, and established systems of control in general. I reckoned that, if this heinous political act, most commonly associated with 3rd world banana republics, has become reality in my own ‘developed’ country, then who knows what’s next, who’s in charge, or how to proceed?

It might not be far fetched to posit that anything we call ‘political’ is, to a degree, inherently violent and heinous.

Five years prior to that day, when I got my first ID card, all excited, and thought about voting in the next general elections, my parents told me to always vote for and support Rabin’s and Peres’s Labor party, since it was their own, personal family tradition. When I got to the ballot, though, being 16, I naturally didn’t do what they told me. Instead of voting Labor, I gave my very first vote to an obscure, alternative, niche-kind of party. You know, the kind that never makes it.

As for my parents, the legendary social welfare programs, unions, and labor conditions that were in full effect during the days they were employed were good enough reasons for them and their generation of immigrants to keep the people who founded the country, and who called themselves the people’s party, in power.

Government used to care once. I wish my generation had just one third of that generation’s compensation and insurance plans. It’s not that we don’t have it as bad.


Yitzhak Rabin, although often controversial, combative and outspoken, is still to this day celebrated by most nations as one of the greatest statesmen of the 20th century. Especially during his final months and weeks, he spoke and acted in sincere and concrete ways towards achieving peace with Israel’s Muslim neighbors. These days sealed his fate, and at the same time made his legacy legendary.

To most Israelis, when Yigal Amir took his life, it was like a distant, dear grandfather was tragically and hatefully murdered, in circumstances that could have been averted.

Rabin’s career-long colleague and rival in the Labor party Shimon Peres, who was then the acting Vice Prime Minister, assumed the deceased leader’s seat for the 6 months that followed the assassination.

When forced elections came again on May 29th, 1996 (12-Tzi) I was still a 20+ year-old Navy sailor. Like many of my compatriots and friends, I felt sure Peres would remain in office to succeed Rabin as Prime Minister elect, and lead Israel down the path of Peace outlined by himself, Rabin, and the rest of the Left.

That night, the current Prime Minister of Israel, Benjamin Netanyahu, leader of the Likud (Right-wing) party, won the 1996 election by a margin of 1%. For Israeli liberals and democrats it was just like taking a political gunshot, right to the head this time. “We went to sleep with Peres, woke up with Netanyahu”, they then said.

Long-distance aftermath

Looking back over the 20-odd years that went by since Rabin’s traumatic assassination, it seems that the forces behind it have gained whatever goal they were aiming for. They have won, to the detriment of all, themselves included. The right-wing monopoly, gradually gaining ground over Israeli consciousness and reality perception, has left the political stage vacant of any real opposition, resistance or checks to their power. Rather than contesting any pertinent political matter, the opposition today bickers over our diminishing social and labor guarantees, child and senior benefits, the co-opting and privatization of national resources, and our abuse of the rights of political refugees, women, and homosexuals.

What used to be called the Israeli LEFT has all but joined in the fate of the last living great white rhino. Alone, rapidly aging, and without a mate, it’s going from ‘endangered’ to ‘extinct’ very fast; a fading shadow of its former glory.

Tonight, as 12-E’ gels into 13-Aj, I know I’ve long since been disillusioned and rudely awakened from the dream of a big-daddy government, who equally looks out for me and everyone else. Today’s elected government “daddies” are mean, incompetent, bigoted, greedy, ego tripping publicity addicts.

None of them can hold a candle to Rabin.